This Weekend was fun, went down to Providence on Friday for sassyback tour, because once wasn't enough. Stayed at Maggie's house with Talia, i love when i get to see her. The Gay Blades were supposed to play yesterday but it got cancelled. I was so sad I love them. We went to see twilight instead, to see what all the craze was about. It was a good movie, but very over-rated. Anyway, spent half the day with City and Colour on repeat, doing no good for me at all. I don't know what i did to my leg but it's killing me, softball this morning was horribly painful.
I realized two things today.
Listening To: Sugar Cube - Porcelain and the Tramps
(keeping in mind this was written late, i need sleep, sassyback tour again tomorrow, good times with maggie await.)
Listening to this one song by dallas green, on repeat, geez. I just want it to be early summer again, i just want to have like one day where everything was how it was in early summer when i was down there.
And i still want to go there now and hang out with Andrew =]
By the way, i just want to scream at you and stop playing games, scream at you in a good way, to get a point across =]
i miss this place right now:
and, i love steven tikellis! mcjewster!<3 he called me tonight to tell me how much money he saved:
I've been listening to a shit ton of midtown all day. I wish they'd play like, even just one reunion show, i'd walk there, or do whatever to be there, wherever. That would make my life.
I love Nora, and i love how, when shit happens, she does it the right way. Don't waste your time being pissed, being mad, wishing this, wishing that. Sit there, talk about the good. I think we just planned our fairy tale's. No shitty people, except a couple of those shitty people we love. Best friends, honesty, good times. It'd all be good.
I love life, i hate bitches.
There's no such thing as complaining when people are being shitty.
Wow, the second twilight movie had official got the ok. Just when i thought this international problem couldn't get any worse... it's a book. It's nice to enjoy a good book, i encourage it, stop shoving it down peoples throats and stop making it the ONLY thing you talk about, it makes me want to stab you in the eye.
I just realized that it is 2am, and if i were to fall asleep at this very monomt, i'd only get 6 hours of sleep before having to get up for softball. I feel like it's about 11pm. Hungout with Noor tonight, what else is new. I bought a micro sd and an adapter for my phone, and while moving things to my computer, i accidentally deleted about 100 old pictures i'd be trying to save. After about an hour of trying to redeem them, i gave up. I hate computers sometimes. It turns out that winter passing is going to be officially released, i'm not sure how it will change the feeling of the song, but i'm praying it won't make it different, i'm not sure if i'll even want to listen to the revised version or just avoid it all together. I hate that i'm not sure if you're supposed to make me smile.
My name is Molly, I have nothing to write about, let's throw this up in the air. I am a sophomore. I am fifteen, sixteen in February. I like pictures, propel, good beats, music that makes you think, my best friends, and telling stories. I have no idea what i want to do in my life. But, for the first time ever, right now I know who I want in my life, who I need in my life, who I love to have in my life. I appreciate best friends, and sitting around talking for hours with nothing better to do. I appreciate summer, but there is nothing i love more on this earth than the changing of seasons, fall, and into winter. I love the snow. My family is from Alabama, but i will NEVER live in a place that does not have four seasons. I love Boston, i love Salisbury and Hampton, and i love Providence. I love people who still type with good grammar, despite it being 2008. I love when you find true connection. I love when you find something that means something. I love one person, for helping me to be able to sit here today, through the changing of seasons and write about what i love.
Disregard Everything I Ever Say. And in case you were wondering, i haven't decided if i'm mad at you. It's probably not worth it, I'm sorry I let myself believe for whole couple of days that you actually weren't still an asshole.
So here it is, the sad post. Sad as in the "let me make a complete fool of myself." Here it goes, there's a song written recently, and that i also heard live just last week. It's call winter passing, and it's beautiful. There's such an indescribable amount of emotion within in. Everytime i hear it, it doesn't matter what's going on, but, just for those 3 minutes that it's streaming through my ears, everything, everything, is different. It's things like these you do not find often, at all. I love this. Erika just called me from the NYC show, Bill was playing it live. I couldn't describe how i feel right now. And you now have complete authority to mock me. I'll take it, this is worth it.
Winter Passing. Its winter again, a white washed and frozen sky… I came to the door, eyes maladjusted from the light, but your voice rang clear. You said, “For all I thought I’d ever need, its hard to face the holidays without.” Well I’ve left my last message on your machine Its hard to face the holidays when you’re looking for the words to say. So you’ve found a friend. You spend all your cold nights with him, but if i was there, then I’d wonder why you still wear my jacket closed with traces of my scent. I’d say, “For all I thought I’d ever need, its hard to face the holidays without.” Well I’ve left my last message on your machine Its hard to face the holidays when you’re looking for the words to say. So stay with me here. Nose to nose, cold enough to see as our breath slowly escapes and exchanges from my lungs to yours, from your mouth to mine. For all I thought I’d ever need, its hard to face the holidays without. Well I’ve left my last message on your machine it’s hard to face the holidays when you’re looking for the words to say. When you’re looking for the words to say.
Steven took this last week,
Listening To: Winter Passing, on repeat, forever - the academy is.
I just realized right now that i saw Jack's Mannequin two years ago today. Wow, i miss them. They played here last night, and it was sold out, had been for a while.
I'm really happy with how i'm doing in school. I know, i know, that sounds terribly geekish. But it's true, i usually have to struggle to stay above a c, and this is the first time in over a year i've made honor roll again. Now personally, i could care less about honor roll. In my mind, a C is average. But my parents like totally shit if i don't make honor roll, so this report card made for getting along being much easier.
Operation meet Mike Carden, January 2006 - present day: fail. Just thought i'd remind myself. It's going to happen, it will... someday, ahhaha.
I'm tired, and i honestly have noting to write about, except that, people can be different people within themselves. And right now, the person i really like is back out there, not the one i didn't like, PLEASE, let this last.
Happy birthday to whatever pete wentz named the kid his baby momma popped out tonight.
Today was nice. Softball to wake me up in the morning, volunteered at a basketball tournament for a few hours (even though it was required haha,) and then went to Noor's with Steven. Also, me and Talia go the definate okay to go down to Providence for Sassyback tour, because once in Hampton wasn't enough.
I love best friends. I hate bitches and hoes. I love good times. I love this weather. I love knowing who i do or don't need. I love knowing that there's people who are there for me, always, and i love knowing i'll always be there for them. This is a pact, this is a promise.
Tonight i told a really long story to Noor, that no one else knows about, except of course, the people involved. It felt good to get it away from just my mind. I'm not really sure right now, whether or not I still care.. but that's for the future to decide.
It's almost winter, i'm excited.
And twitter is one of the easiest things to grow addicted to. I know my updates are on my page, but my url is: www.twitter.com/mollyxftw
Happy birthday to Noor again.
Me and Steven ordered these: "mondayeyes" <3 (yes, i bought into the cliche, but i do take part in it.)
Went to Noor's tonight for pre birthday fun. Ended up baking cake and watching tai tv all night, reminiscing (sp?) all of the old times when the academy, and the academy only, was the soundtrack to my life. I'm going back tomorrow, for more birthday fun, sweet sixteen, if only it lasted forever.
I've grown addictions. The william beckett blog. the bronx. Mondayeyes, that ones for sure. twitter. less sleep, i've grown accustomed. kane hodder the podcast, that one kicked back in. Anyway, etc etc, the list goes on forever.
I've grown a new love for built in webcams, and effects. oh and, the butcherrr ;]
Veterans day, no school. This weather is the most perfect thing in the world. I love it, it brings out the best in me. I'm excited for tomorrow, and for my weekend with maggie, and for seeing the gay blades again.
I really hate when people bring up things that don't matter. Why do you have to bring up old shit? And why are you apologizing now, it's way too late for that one.
I forgot i had softball tonight. And by the way, i wish i could paint, or draw more than stick figures, it'd be a much more productive way to spend my time.
i want this day back so bad, one more time.
listeing to: puppy mills presents - the gay blades
This week will be good. School tomorrow, and working tomorrow, so that'll go towards my camera. No school tuesday. Not going to school wednesday, going to Boston with Steven for the academy is and we the kings. Hopefully going to lions lions friday. I miss them. Apparently envy is playing here again soon, but there's no details yet, so i'm worried i won't figure everything out in time. There's a little piece of me that just wants to work and sleep until christmas, i hate waiting. I want my camera so bad, all i want to do is work. I need another job.
<3
Listening to: starving your friends - envy on the coast.
Night of, morning of, i can't figure it out. I should be going to see maggie and chiodos tonight but i'm not, because envy on the coast likes to throw up sudden shows. But i'd give up any other show if it meant not missing them, so it's chill. I do miss maggie though, i wish i saw her more. And speaking of missing people, Erika better be coming to visit me soon! I've been getting into the bronx a lot lately. I don't know what it is about their music but i love it. There's something unique about it.
Last night, was amazing. I'm falling asleep at the keyboard so i'm gonna bank on this getting re-edited tomorrow. Their set last night, or just all of last night in general was most definately one of the best times of my entire year.
11.7.08. edit// No, this isn't getting re-edited, because i wrote "one of the best nights of my year" and that hands down would sum it up pretty well. yes. //
November 4th. Today will change history, and not just because it's Maggie's birthday. As of right now, it looks like Barack Obama is the new president of the United States. It was time for change, we needed it, and although i may hardly understand politics in the least, i have faith that he'll change American for the better. I'm excited to see what will happen in the coming months.
Tomorrow, Envy On The Coast. I can't explain how excited i am for this. A college show, I've heard a lot about how much more fun college shows are. I'm stoked that we're even going to get in in the first place. I'm thinking this is going to be one of the most amazing nights of my year. It's been ten times <3
I want to shove a grammar lesson up america's ass. If i see one more person write "are" when the correct word is "our," or spell the word "dying" as "dieing," i'm going to burn down all the schools, because apparently they're useless anyway. Either what needs to be taught isn't getting taught, or kids just don't care. If you want to take your macrobio lab about bugs and not pay attention, that's fine. I can promise that 90% of people will never use things like that in life. But do yourself a favor. Take 45 minutes out of your whole school day, and pay attention in english class. Because every single person on this earth needs to know how to fucking spell. Thank you. On a lighter note, i had expected i wouldn't get to see envy on the coast until january or february. But now i'll be seeing those boys wednesday. This should be great. It's a day after Maggie's birthday, so it's even better that i'm going to see her there too. It pretty much needs to be November 12th, because i know Bill and Trav's bogus journey tour is going to be too amazing to express in words. I'm hoping this will make up for missin sleeping with giants last year, because that's one i'll never forgive myself for missing, even though i was grounded. Elections are Tuesday, and i honestly have no idea who could win this one. I think that's good for a change. But i don't understand politics, and i'm almost 100% sure i never will, so i'll stay out of this.
This girl makes me hate life, it's a book, read it, don't live it please.
Went to derry for and then there were none on halloween. It was really fun, but it honestly felt nothing like halloween, more like any other friday night, which kind of bummed everyone out.
DISCLAIMER: (because everyone takes the internet so seriously, i'd like to note that i'd never actually burn down a school, it's more a metaphore for my anger. because i know there's some asshole out there who will print this and bring it to the police. Or maybe it's just because of that time like 5 years ago when some kid was being annoying and i told him to stop being so fucking gay and he printed it out and brought it to our principle.)
