I Am The Messenger.

I never summed up friday. Hands done, fucking amazing. We got there at like, 5:30 and there were barely any people there. It was weird. The lineup was as follows, POS, the devil wears prada, saosin, and underoath. Some guy came by and gave us wrist bands for a meet and greet, so we went. Honestly, i know there are a thousands kids who say this every day, but all of underoath really are the sweetest dudes ever. From that time talking to Timmy for a half hour by a river in lowell almost two years ago, to spending 5 minutes talking to them friday night, they're really the most down to earth boys you'll ever meet.

I don't care what anyone says, POS is fucking amazing. Every time i see him i'm just amazed. He works so hard for everything he does, and i want to punch every little shithead kid that told him he sucked. Honestly, if you don't like it, suck it up, because i can promise you he works 34764373x harder than any one of those kids telling him he sucked.

It still amazes me that THAT voice comes out of spencer chamberlain's body.

And also, POS definately kicked my ass in thumb wrestling like 4363637 times, even though i definately killed him once last year.

Good times, Panic at the Disco wednesday, no way near the live show of underoath, but this will be fun.



Oh and PS:
cove reber wants to be ryan hunter so bad.
you should have seen him, you'd agree.

Kill The Messenger.

10.25.08

Tired. Tired. Tired.
I love grape propel, and hate beaver girls. I met my twin last night, his name is Rab and we were separated at birth. I'm getting a tattoo that someone i care about told me was "really fucking gay." Also, it's been far too long since i've seen envy on the coast. Last night was pretty crazy. Third time seeing POS, second time seeing TDWP, even though i could care less about them, third time seeing underoath, and fourth time seeing saosin. So good.

Tonight i was at my friend's house and her mom was having a halloween get together downstairs. we walked down there and saw a woman with assless chaps as a costume. i peed my pants laughing, only not really.
also there was a lady passed out in a chair:

i thought that was funny.


talia took this picture and made me laugh at how much i suck:



i also love danny peralta with all my soul.
because he's an amazing person.
and far nicer than most people you'll ever meet.

You Weren't Heard..

10.23.08

Happy Birthday Ally Bull!


Today i decided, for good, i don't care.
people are shitty,
people do shitting things,
but then it's like,
i'm not dying.
i haven't lost anyone very close to me.
i have a few best friends.
i do almost everything i want to.

shit happens.
love life.
life is good.



tomorrow ;] <3


six days ;]

Dinosaurs!?

10.21.08

I need to think of something extra spectacular to do for Maggie for her birthday. I really want to go see Lions Lions on halloween, that'd make the day perfect. I hate that there is someone i know that makes me smile so much. Even though that statement makes absolutely no sense, i know. Tonight i was writing an essay about my decision of whether or not to stay here or move to Alabama. Writing it made me realize just how much i love it here. I love being thirty minutes from boston, and twenty minutes from the beach. I love Lowell, and the perfect chilly fall weather. I love taking the train into the city with my friends, and i love Methuen High. I love the 119 gallery, and good times with noor, and i quote, "LEMME TOUCH IT JUST FOR A MINUTE!?" I wish i lived closer to Smagdelyn, but i love going to her house and going down to providence on weekends. I love the living room, that venue is the shit. I love snow piling 5 feet high. I love the smell of new england, if that even makes sense.

Why have i had panic at the disco stuck in my head forever? i think it's because they're playing here wednesday, and i haven't seen them in two years, and as much as i hate to admit it, i really want to go.



this picture cracks my shit up.
me and katie are nerds, i love providence by the way.

lupo's, providence, september 27th, pouring rain. the very best.

Just A Dash Of Framaldayde.

10.20.08

I am going to every single johnny cupcakes release from now on, talk about fun. Nothing has happened. I've been grounded for no reason. Literally, not like most people say to be whiney, but that's probably how i sound anyway. I want to go to Our Last Night and Lions Lions on halloween. And i love this chilled october weather, the weather everyone's complaining about. i love it more than anything.


hardly anyone will ever understand how badly
i want to relive this day. just one more time.


also, i love nora wafai,
because i'm a creep, and she gets it.


I love this tattoo.

Tell me if it's yours? so i can tell you that i love your imagination.

So It's Time For the Cliche...

10.11.08

So it's time for that cliche day after show overview. Last night was pretty fun. Hampton Casino is definately one of my favorite venues, so that's a plus. Cobra Starship, Forever The Sickest Kids, Sing It Loud, and Hit The Lights. Haha so me and talia totally sweet talked and lied to this guy running the guest list and he gave us wrist bands to get in early. That was pretty sweet. I just saw hit the lights two weekends ago so it was even more fun to see them. Sing it Loud was plain amazing, as i expected. Like a dance party. Forever the sickest kids is always a good time. This time didn't prove to be any different. Cobra was decent, but based on all of the other times i've seen them, pretty weak. But still really fun of course. We were too lazy to go to the meet and greet afterwards because that's only for SUPER cool kids, which we're not. We hung out outside, where i was "freezing my tits off" and kyle burns was "making sure to let me know if he saw them on the ground somewhere." I met a man that appeared to be Adam Lazzara's love child. And Ben from sing it loud insisted we watch youtube videos on his iphone while pat screamed all the words to it.
It was RACK EM RACK.

Thanks Talia.

10.7.08

So thanks to Talia, I'm basically obsessed with this show True Blood now. Usually vampire books, shows, everything are so cliche. Seriously, it's always the same story. Like people who are obsessed with Twilight!? It's a book, and it's seriously cliche, get over it, please? This show is actually really good though. Thanks for putting a different spin on a vampire story, FINALLY. And for making the main vampire in the show extremely attractive, that's a plus. More softball now.

Tell me that you're alright?
yea, everything s alright.

game.

homecoming.

10.4.08

homecoming is always the fucking worst time. i got dressed up, got excited, showed up with a smile, all for one person. one person, who seriously, just is completely rediculous. Danny Peralta pretty much makes my life so much better. hahaha. I don't want to go to sleep. i know it will all go to hell once i lay down and think. i don't want to think. i want it to be tomorrow, so i can go to softball, and run, and think of the game and nothing else. and i want steven and nora to come over and chill, and i want to talk to talia lee bercume. Everything is fine.



i lost the game.

Honestly,

10.2.08

I ruin fucking everything. I overspeak, I overthink. But i also think to little. I rip people to shreds. Nobody wants to spend much time on me once they realize how inconvenient it will be for them. I am annoying, i will bug the shit out of you. You will hate me, and that's a promise. And then i get pissed off when i realize it's my fault so many people hate me. I RUIN EVERYTHING. Today is the most perfect fall day, i'm going for a long, long walk. And i'm going to have a nice think, about all the things that are horrible about me. And all the things i need to change. Because i always say i'm going to change, and i never do. But this is it, this is the start of change. And if i don't follow through this time, i don't even know what's next. Bye.