Honestly,

10.2.08

I ruin fucking everything. I overspeak, I overthink. But i also think to little. I rip people to shreds. Nobody wants to spend much time on me once they realize how inconvenient it will be for them. I am annoying, i will bug the shit out of you. You will hate me, and that's a promise. And then i get pissed off when i realize it's my fault so many people hate me. I RUIN EVERYTHING. Today is the most perfect fall day, i'm going for a long, long walk. And i'm going to have a nice think, about all the things that are horrible about me. And all the things i need to change. Because i always say i'm going to change, and i never do. But this is it, this is the start of change. And if i don't follow through this time, i don't even know what's next. Bye.